An Open Letter to A citizen Of Gaza: I Am the Soldier Who Slept In Your Home
By: Yishai G (reserve soldier)
[Originally published in Hebrew in Maariv January 2009
Translation by Yona Cymerman]
While the world watches the ruins in Gaza, you return to your home which
remains standing. However, I am sure that it is clear to you that someone
was in your home while you were away. I am that someone.
I spent long hours imagining how you would react when you walked into your
home. How you would feel when you understood that IDF soldiers had slept on
your mattresses and used your blankets to keep warm.
I knew that it would make you angry and sad and that you would feel this
violation of the most intimate areas of your life by those defined as your
enemies, with stinging humiliation. I am convinced that you hate me with
unbridled hatred, and you do not have even the tiniest desire to hear what I
have to say. At the same time, it is important for me to say the following
in the hope that there is even the minutest chance that you will hear me.
I spent many days in your home. You and your family’s presence was felt in
every corner. I saw your family portraits on the wall, and I thought of my
family. I saw your wife’s perfume bottles on the bureau, and I thought of
my wife. I saw your children’s toys and their English language schoolbooks.
I saw your personal computer and how you set up the
modem and wireless phone next to the screen, just as I do.
I wanted you to know that despite the immense disorder you found in your
house that was created during a search for explosives and tunnels (which
were indeed found in other homes), we did our best to treat your possessions
with respect. When I moved the computer table, I disconnected the
cables and lay them down neatly on the floor, as I would do with my own
computer. I even covered the computer from dust with a piece of cloth. I
tried to put back the clothes that fell when we moved the closet although
not the same as you would have done, but at least in such a way that nothing
would get lost.
I know that the devastation, the bullet holes in your walls and the
destruction of those homes near you place my descriptions in a ridiculous
light. Still, I need you to understand me, us, and hope that you will
channel your anger and criticism to the right places.
I decided to write you this letter specifically because I stayed in your
I can surmise that you are intelligent and educated and there are those in
your household that are university students. Your children learn English,
and you are connected to the Internet. You are not ignorant; you know what
is going on around you.
Therefore, I am sure you know that Quassam rockets were launched from your
neighborhood into Israeli towns and cities.
How could you see these weekly launches and not think that one day we would
say “enough”?! Did you ever consider that it is perhaps wrong to launch
rockets at innocent civilians trying to lead a normal life, much like you?
How long did you think we would sit back without reacting?
I can hear you saying “it’s not me, it’s Hamas”. My intuition tells me you
are not their most avid supporter. If you look closely at the sad reality
in which your people live, and you do not try to deceive yourself or make
excuses about “occupation”, you must certainly reach the conclusion that the
Hamas is your real enemy.
The reality is so simple, even a seven year old can understand: Israel
withdrew from the Gaza strip, removing military bases and its citizens from
Gush Katif. Nonetheless, we continued to provide you with
electricity, water, and goods (and this I know very well as during my
reserve duty I guarded the border crossings more than once, and
witnessed hundreds of trucks full of goods entering a blockade-free Gaza
Despite all this, for reasons that cannot be understood and with a lack of
any rational logic, Hamas launched missiles on Israeli towns. For three
years we clenched our teeth and restrained ourselves. In the end, we could
not take it anymore and entered the Gaza strip, into your neighborhood, in
order to remove those who want to kill us. A reality that is painful but
very easy to explain.
As soon as you agree with me that Hamas is your enemy and because of them,
your people are miserable, you will also understand that the change must
come from within. I am acutely aware of the fact that what I say is easier
to write than to do, but I do not see any other way. You, who are connected
to the world and concerned about your children’s education, must lead,
together with your friends, a civil uprising against Hamas.
I swear to you, that if the citizens of Gaza were busy paving roads,
building schools, opening factories and cultural institutions instead of
dwelling in self pity, arms smuggling and nurturing a hatred to your Israeli
neighbors, your homes would not be in ruins right now. If your leaders were
not corrupt and motivated by hatred, your home would not have been harmed.
If someone would have stood up and shouted that there is no point in
launching missiles on innocent civilians, I would not have to stand in your
kitchen as a soldier.
You don’t have money, you tell me? You have more than you can imagine.
Even before Hamas took control of Gaza, during the time of Yasser Arafat,
millions if not billions of dollars donated by the world community to the
Palestinians was used for purchasing arms or taken directly to
your leaders bank accounts. Gulf States, the emirates - your brothers, your
flesh and blood, are some of the richest nations in the world. If there was
even a small feeling of solidarity between Arab nations, if these nations
had but the smallest interest in reconstructing the Palestinian people –
your situation would be very different.
You must be familiar with Singapore. The land mass there is not much larger
than the Gaza strip, it is considered the second most populated country in
the world. Yet, Singapore is a successful, prospering, and well managed
country. Why not the same for you?
My friend, I would like to call you by name, but I will not do so publicly.
I want you to know that I am 100% at peace with what my country did, what my
army did, and what I did. However, I feel your pain. I am sorry for the
destruction you are finding in your neighborhood at this moment. On a
personal level, I did what I could to minimize the damage to your home as
much as possible.
In my opinion, we have a lot more in common than you might imagine. I am a
civilian, not a soldier, and in my private life I have nothing to do with
the military. However, I have an obligation to leave my home, put on a
uniform, and protect my family every time we are attacked. I have no desire
to be in your home wearing a uniform again and I would be more than happy to
sit with you as a guest on your beautiful balcony, drinking sweet tea
seasoned with the sage growing in your garden.
The only person who could make that dream a reality is you. Take
responsibility for yourself, your family, your people, and start to take
control of your destiny. How? I do not know. Maybe there is something to
be learned from the Jewish people who rose up from the most destructive
human tragedy of the 20th century, and instead of sinking into self-pity,
built a flourishing and prospering country. It is possible, and it is in
your hands. I am ready to be there to provide a shoulder of support and
help to you.
But only you can move the wheels of history.
Yishai, (Reserve Soldier)